Food to quench the misery?

Had a wonderful meal to try and weed the feeling of helplessness. Although not cheap, the meal was quite satisfying and managed to lift the mood a bit. Goes to show that I am probably belong to the live to eat party. Still no matter how good the food, once it’s gone it’s gone. The only way to bring it back is to order another one. However, you can’t do that with life. You only have one chance. Would you go all out and risk everything just to tell yourself, “At least I tried” but fail miserably or would you stay in your comfort zone and not try at all. People say you should not live with regret but what if the “try” paid a much a higher price than you expected?

There is no right or wrong to this. But I feel there is a lot of things that needs to be considered. The “what-ifs” are always the fear that prevents people from trying. Sometimes, failure does not only impact the individual but also the ones around them. But you never know until you try, but should you?

Reflection on life.

Decided to go for an early morning walk in an attempt to catch the sunrise on this big day. Little did u realise that the weather forecast was cloudy the entire day and could barely catch a glimpse of the sunlight.

Looking at the the weather made me realise it’s so closely reflective of my life at the moment. Not sure how many people have this same feeling. But I feel as though despite living for the past decades, it seems like I am still searching for what I want in life. There is no passion at the workplace even after changing multiple jobs. It is really difficult to find that one job that really makes you look forward to going work everyday. Currently, work is more for survival, getting the salary to survive to the next salary payout. People say it’s very seldom to find that job that you really yearn for and majority of us are just working for the sake of providing food on the table. Is it really that hard? Or is it just that I’m not willing to take the leap with fear of losing everything? Or is it just a lazy of an excuse?